“I don’t know who I am. I don’t know what I like. I don’t know what I want. I don’t know how to move forward. I feel like I have turned into a shell.” Have you said this? If yes, drop your answers in the comments below. Do you struggle with it? Just share your experiences. Who knows, a lot of people will be able to resonate with you and feel less alone in their healing journey.
So, why wouldn’t you feel this way when the narcissist made you question every single thing that you were into? They kept you in this small cage and made you feel small about yourself so that your greatness is suppressed. You’re meant to be great as an empath, as a human being—you have that potential in you, and they hated it because they didn’t have it. They couldn’t steal it away from you, so they had to destroy it. They were jealous of you and expressed that jealousy as animosity.
Why wouldn’t you feel so disconnected from yourself when this toxic individual made you question your intuition until you lost connection? They filled your head with chronic doubt through gaslighting, twisting reality, and shaping the environment in a way to make you fail and then prove to you that you are the cause. They told you that you are overly sensitive, that you are reacting to a situation where nothing is wrong, and that you are making up things. You are interested in villainizing them and nothing else. They are not as bad as you make it seem. Things are going the wrong way because of your childhood trauma, your baggage, your issues with men (or women). They might say, “You don’t know how to treat women,” or “You are treating me like a burden because you are interested in somebody else.”
I can go on with the list, but the thing is, they truly dissociate you—not just disconnect, but dissociate is a heavier word. The emphasis is on absolute uprooting. They dissociate you from yourself. They make you go against your moral code by settling for things that you would have never settled for, like cheating. If another partner had cheated on you, you would have said goodbye, farewell. But this person convinced you that it happened because of you, that you were not giving them enough attention. So, you were burdened with guilt and shame, and you gave in. You gave them chances, thinking, “I need to make it correct. What did I do wrong for them to seek that support somewhere else? How can I provide it?
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