While they may seem controlled and organized on the outside, they are actually imbalanced and insecure on the inside. Their routines and habits are mechanical, enforced, and devoid of any depth or meaning. It’s like they are following a script designed to keep them going and ensure their supply. This focus on finding supply makes narcissists absent-minded, unfocused, and disinterested in people or events around them—unless these events relate to their supply or control.
As a child, my father never cared about what was going on in my life. He only interfered when it affected his public image or his control over my choices. Narcissists develop habits to compensate for their inability to deal with the real world. These automated routines require less mental investment and provide them with a false sense of functionality.
For instance, my father prayed five times a day, but it felt like lip service because, despite his prayers, he remained hard-hearted and abusive. If someone is genuinely trying to connect with a higher power, how can they be so disconnected and cruel? Narcissists have rigid opinions, unbending rules, and uncompromising views on right and wrong, which they force upon others, especially their family. These compulsions and obsessions make them resistant to change.
Their habits are fossils of past responses to the environment they grew up in. Their routines often involve fear-inducing and paranoia-driven behaviors, like obsessively watching negative news. I remember how my father would watch fake news and spread fear, constantly warning us of terrible things to come, as if he were reliving his own childhood terrors.
Emotional Suppression
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