Many survivors of narcissistic abuse struggle significantly with their wavering faith in the Divine. They find themselves wondering and asking questions such as, “What did I do to deserve this punishment? Why was I put through this hell? Why do I suffer while the narcissist lives freely?” The abusers move on from one person to another, seemingly unscathed, while the victims cannot move on from their pain. How and when will justice be delivered? In today’s discussion, I’ll be delving into what God does to a narcissist and how justice is ultimately served when the narcissist crosses all limits.
Anyway, back to the topic. During my journey while processing the anger, I realized that my father is already suffering. What I was focusing on was the external success that seemed available to him. Many narcissists get to live long lives, taste success like no other, and have all the money and resources at their disposal. They get to use people as they please. Yes, that’s true. But what is their internal experience of it? They are deeply dissatisfied, which is why they keep jumping from one person to another. They are cold, and their hearts do not truly beat with life—they are just lumps of flesh moving about with no soul. They have everything, but they can’t feel it, taste it, smell it, see it, or touch it. They are living in the flesh but have a ghostly presence. They do not know what life truly is. In my opinion, living life as a parasite, dependent on others to feel something, is a wasted life. That is their suffering.
I don’t know if it was divine intervention or not, but during this work, I came across a few narcissists who booked sessions with me. They wanted to know how to change, how to be a different person. I asked them what it was like to be who they are. All of them told me the same thing in different ways. It may seem like they are living their lives and it looks so good, but they are suffering immensely. They can’t even face their own suffering. They have no option. Even if they wanted to go inward and face themselves, they couldn’t because it would be like dying and being reborn. The thought of such a collapse gives them extreme anxiety. Their suffering is real and profound.
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Unfortunately, you came into their path. There is no straightforward explanation for this. Maybe they were a catalyst in your life, used to show you a direction. Sometimes we must go through tough times. This is not to say, “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.” No, I’m not saying that. This is my own understanding of it. Had I not been through what I have been through, I would never have been able to help so many people. That’s my peace with it. That’s how I see my purpose and understand it. Maybe there was something in it for you, too. Maybe it was just a wake-up call, something to tell you that you need to work on your core issues and be your authentic self. This is my understanding, and if you do not agree with it, that’s totally okay. You may see it as abuse with no explanation or reason behind it. Abuse cannot be justified at all.
To offer a different perspective on the same topic, I have an interesting story to share with you—a story of a powerful king named Shadad. Once upon a time, in the vast Kingdom of Ad, there lived a very powerful king named Shadad. He was blessed with unparalleled resources, wealth, health, and access to anything he liked. You name it, he had it. All of that was a test for him. He could have used it to benefit humanity, to uplift people, but he used all those resources to fuel his grandiose narcissistic self.
A time came in his life when he heard about Divine Heaven, created by God for good people. He felt a narcissistic injury because he saw himself as a god and decided to build a heaven on Earth, insulting God by claiming, “Your heaven is nothing compared to the one I am going to build. I don’t need your Heaven; I will create my own.” He started the preparations and spent a long time building that city he called Heaven. There were streams flowing, and it was decorated with jewels, women, men, and everything one could imagine.
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God allowed him to build it, and people around Shadad started questioning God’s existence because Shadad seemed capable of doing anything. But when it came time for him to enter his heaven, God took away his soul. Shadad did not get to step into it, proving that he wasn’t all-powerful and that he didn’t have control over everything. He was just a human being. The moral of the story is that narcissists can get whatever they go after, but that doesn’t mean they live a peaceful life. You all know that the end of their life is miserable.
There is a striking similarity between Shadad’s story and a narcissist’s life. They get to have it all, but they do not enjoy any of it. Towards the end, it’s all gone to waste. What is the proof of that? Their bitterness, their fragile and out-of-place feelings, and their increasing tendency to hurt people more than ever. They lose control and can’t play their narcissistic mind games anymore. They see themselves falling apart, and their entire narcissistic false self collapses. That is when God takes revenge. I witnessed this firsthand when my narcissistic, psychopathic grandfather passed away. I didn’t attend his funeral, but I heard a few things. Just within a couple of days of his death, his four or five sons started fighting over the money spent on the funeral. Can you imagine that? All of them are narcissists, but death and money—just a few hundred dollars—became a huge issue. Nobody was by his side when he died; he died alone. Even in his last days, he was trying to get supply from his past life, boasting about his past achievements. He couldn’t accept his reality because he believed he would be powerful forever. But God showed him the truth. He lived a long life to realize that he was nothing but a pile of dirt that had to vanish away. That is the truth, and that life is their suffering.
A long life is not always a gift; for some, it’s a curse. Some narcissists pray and wish for their life to end. Towards the end of their lives, they are among those people. That is how God teaches them a lesson. If you believe in the afterlife, you know what is coming for them. If you believe in reincarnation, you know their souls never find peace and suffer eternally. I hope this gives you some peace. I know you are not a vengeful person and do not want them to suffer. Neither do I, but it is the divine system. That is how it works. There is always a balance. It’s karma; it’s the karmic law. If you do something wrong, you will have to pay for it here and hereafter. Nothing goes wasted.
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